I wanted to ..

I wanted to be happy , but it's really hard sometimes .
I wanted to be selfish , but it isn't as easy as I thought .
I wanted to be angry with you , but I just couldn't bear to .
I wanted to do something to help , but I'm just too useless .
I wanted to tell you how I feel , but I'm afraid that it isn't a good idea .
I wanted to be with you , but why does it always seems so impossible ?
& I wanted to tell you that I really need you a lot ..

Maybe it's just nothing & I'm thinking too much .
But I really don't know what to do ..

There's nothing you would tell and there's nothing I could say ..